Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I am in my most difficult time right now

I am new to this, I just lost my dear husband last night. I was beside him till his last breath and it was the most terrible experience I gone through. I really never expected that this would happen so quickly. I had so much hope. Last Friday I really thought that he is ready to come home cause he really looks better, but when I visited him yesterday he looks so bad but I really never thought that, it was time for him to go. In the afternoon on the same day I received a call that they put back my husband to the ICU because he was really in bad shape. My sister in-law and I rush back to the hospital. We directly went to the ICU and the doctor wont let us see him yet, because they are trying to work on him. At 4pm the doctor told us that hey are trying to stop the bleeding that blacking his artery which causes him to have a hard time to breath. When the Doctor told us that even if they will stop the bleeding there was no more hopes for him to stay longer, I still can’t believe it, but I know that he is happy where he is right now and his free from pain. Its just really hard for me and the pain that I have been through right now. I couldn’t sleep and I couldn’t eat. I always see my husband’s face where ever I go. Right now I just want to keep my mind busy, and so here I am blogging all these pain to help me express and ease all these heartaches.

66 comments:

GreenRose said...

Just be strong Ivy. I know unsa kasakit og kalisod dawaton pero wa man jud ta'y mahimo...hinuwaman raman ni nato atong kinabuhi.

Utah Mommy said...

I am terribly sorry for this Pretty. GOD has reasons why things happen. Just look at me, i just lost my precious little girl but never did question HIM for his decisions because i know that HE has a better plan for me. Just keep your faith and i know things will turn out good for you as days go by. Always pray and keep your love for GOD. Your husband is now in a better place, just like what you said, he is now free from pain that he'd gone through.

Remember, a lot of people loves you, and i am one of them. I love you and please be strong in times like this.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry to hear about your dear hubby. Our heartfelt condolence to you. You'll be in our prayers. Be strong and God bless.

Lisa said...

My deepest sympathy for the passing away of your hubby. Be strong in the Lord. I know you can handle it. God won't give you trials that you can't bear.

If your hubby is saved, he's with his Creator right now. Just pray when you feel sad and lonely. God will comfort you and He will give you peace that surpasses understanding. I'll pray for you Ivy.

Sweetiepie said...

Everything has a reason and just be strong. We all here for you to comfort you. My deepest sympathy and you`ll be in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. I would like to extend my condolences to your family! Take care.

Anonymous said...

so sorry to hear about your loss ivz... hugs to you... {{hugs}}

Anonymous said...

gikan ko sa bisdak ug nabasa nako ang nahitabo Iv's.
I'm sorry to hear about your hubby,
as they said, just be strong.
sending thoughts and prayers for you.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear the very painful news sis....I don't know what to say...One thing for sure God will always be right at your side....He is your true comfort in times like this....

Anonymous said...

Ivz condolence... Please be strong for you and your family. Hay... I know how u feel ryt now becoz i've experienced losing a loved one also. Be strong my friend. Kaya mo yan Ivz... God bless and take care Ivz...

Joy0z said...

Oh My God. I'm so sorry for what happen Ivs. I can feel your pain now. I'm too emotional when it comes to things like this. I'm teary now. Hold on. Be strong. My condolences. I know words are not enough but it's his time so accept things freely because it's HIS will.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for your loss.

Unknown said...

How terrible thing to happen! I am teary-eyed here while reading at your post. I can't imagine the pain you're carrying right now. I'm saddened to hear your lost. I know you for quite sometime and I know how strong you can be. I am so sorry! I felt so sad for you but I'll hope you'll be fine, I'm sure you will be. Our Condolence to you gwaps! Keep your faith in because I know in times like this God is just right by your side.

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Anonymous said...

Hang in there, Ivs. Everything has a reason. If you want someone to talk to, I am just here...

Anonymous said...

Ivy, may you feel God's hands carrying you in this trying times. My deepest sympathy.

(btw, i read the news at Lainy's blog)

PinayWAHM said...

Sending you lots of prayers! My condolences to you and your family and friends!


Mommy J

Daisy said...

I am so very sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

My condolence to you dai Iv's. He is in better place now with God. Be strong & my prayers are for you and your family.

""rarejonRez"" said...

i have been lifting you up in my prayers Ivz because i know how heartbreaking your case is. i hope you can recover soon. bright days are still ahead of you and i wish you well on those ones. the better part of it is that your husband is now free from the suffering and pain that he has gone through.

keep the faith in God Ivz. He never stops watching over you.. God bless you and please accept my deepest condolences....

love,
recel

Anonymous said...

My deepest sympathy Ivs. Stay strong. Prayers to you and your family.

Angel said...

I'm so sorry to hear about this sad news Ivs. Condolence to you and be strong and God Bless!

Anonymous said...

My Condolence and Sympathy! Lisod jud cguro pagsabot og pagdawat sa pagkakaron but time will heal all wounds....Certainly, your husband is in a better place now and wherever he will be... You now have an Angel watching from above... Keep your faith and our prayers are for you and the rest of the family. Take Care..

Twerlyn said...

I'm here for you always..


muah!!

aEr said...

Love u dai!

Anonymous said...

oh my! so sorry to hear the news...that was sudden:(....be strong sis and again, you have my deepest sympathy..

Merydith said...

My sympathy to you Ivs.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. God is good, keep the faith. May your husband rest in peace.

Jerla Oh lalala said...

im so sorry to hear that you lost your hubby. Condolence to you and your family. just be strong and you will be in our prayer.

Ritchelle said...

Shadrack and I feels sorry about what your hubby has gone through Ivs, I feel the pain that you are having right now. And you're right, the LORD God wanted him to rest in peace because of the pain that he felt.

DebbieDana said...

Please accept our deepest sympathy and condolences. You're in our prayers.


Debbie and Dana

Marie NP said...

My deepest sympathy to you Iv's. You are included to my prayer.

Unknown said...

Hello Iv,

I just read the post. Sorry to hear about your dear Hubby. I'm sure you are in the most difficult times. I can't imagine being in your position right now.

Just remember, you have friends around. Be strong, and take care of yourself.

Anonymous said...

My condolences to you and your family.

Mizé said...

Hi Ivy.
Just read your post. My sincere condolences.
Gotta be strong, one day at the time.
xx

Janine said...

dae, I am sorry to hear about your husband..Good thing your family are here to comfort you..at least you are not alone diri sa USA. Just be strong ivy..You're right I am sure your husband is happy wherever he is right now and free from pain. Condolence dae ivy..

Norm said...

sorry to hear about your loss Ivs, my sincere condolences to you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Just read your post, make me cry. Im so sorry to hear about your husband. I know how you feel right now, be strong sis.. My sincere Condelence to you and to your family!

anne said...

Hi girl, karon ra jud ko nakabasa ani, my condolences ivs, just hang in there as they all said everything happens for a reason. Be strong, we'll always be here for you.

Nessa said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You and yours will be in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Oh so sorry to hear about this Ivy. Just be strong i know its hard but God heals the broken heart time flies by. take care always. God bless.

Kirhat said...

I would like to extend my condolences and deepest sympathy to you and your family. It is always a sad day to lose someone close to our heart.

Seek No More

neiyomee said...

dae ivs...this is so sad and hard! hinuon, ingon ana man gyud na, dili nato masayran ang panahon. Just be strong and take good care of yourself. Remember nga naa pay uban nag take para sa imo.

God bless!

Bless said...

Please accept our heartfelt condolences and sympathy. Your family will be in our prayers. Always remember that you are loved.

Gee said...

I know you are blessed to have him even for not so long a time. But our life is just borrowed from God, you are still lucky you met him and felt loved by him.

Stay strong and I know wherever he is right now, he knows you will survive this grief. Our condolences..Billy & Grace

Unknown said...

sory to hear that... pls be strong...

Anonymous said...

My condolences. I believe that your husband is never far away, he will always be in your heart.

MamaLot said...

Oh I am so sorry for your lost dai Ives. I know its really hard but come think of it... pain free na ang hubby mo and in a better place na. Just always pray dai... May God give you more strength and peace of mind... We are just here if you need someone to talk to....

Dragonblogger said...

You have my deepest sympathies for your loss. You are strong for sharing your pain with your readers, may you find comfort in the support you receive from others.

Michele said...

I am very very sorry for your loss. Please know that he is in a better place. May God bless you with the strength to go on. I lost my son 21 months ago, I know its not the same, but just want to tell you that the days get easier. Please be strong and know that you are in our prayers here in Ohio.

Anonymous said...

So sorry to hear about your husband dai Ivy. Stay strong.. I'll include u in my prayers. Take care.

Amy said...

Sorry to hear about your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Take care & be strong.

Joro Livelihood said...

Please accept my heartfelt condolence for the demised of your beloved husband. God is with him at this time and May He Rest in Peace and be forgiven for his sins whilst on earth.

Anonymous said...

Ivy, sorry to hear about your loss. Everything happens for a reason, just be strong, God loves you. I have you in my prayers.

Dean and Lee Schroeder said...

I am so sorry for your lost girl! I am terribly sad for your lost. My prayers are with you. My friend from CA sent her condolences too...

Always keep your faith stronger than ever. God has good plans for you... Look at the brighter side too, your husband will be in good hands...

Keep in touch!

Marites said...

Gikan ko sa bisdakplanet. So sorry to hear about your husband, my condolences. I shall include him in my prayers and also, will pray for your strength and guidance.

Anonymous said...

Sorry Iv, be strong,remember God loves you, you will never alone Jesus is always w you keep in touch
mao jud ang ato kinabuhi Iv....ana-a siya karon sa ato Ginoo ug malipayon,

Malou

HulaGirl said...

sorry to hear about it ivs, just be strong, God is always there to guide u....

Euroangel said...

sad to hear about it Ivy..felt sorry about that but God always has a plan for all of us...sending my deepest sympathy and my family too..keep praying and be strong...God laways listens!!God bless!!

Anonymous said...

you may not know me, but still i'd like to give my heartfelt condolences to you. may God comfort you during this time of your great loss.

Race said...

Oh I'm sorry to hear that, I just found out today Ivy! Be strong for your kid and pray to God to give you the peace and serenity to accept the things that came your way. God has a reason for letting your husband go. At least he's resting now, no more pain and I know he wants you to feel that way also. Always remember that God will never give you a trial that you cannot handle. Again my deepest condolences Ivy!

Ylan said...

I'm sorry for your loss, my condolences. Be strong. God has His ways...

Elvz said...

I just found out about the loss of your husband, my condolences to you Ivy! Be strong, sending you lots of prayers :)

Shoshana said...

Ivy, am very sorry to hear about your loss. ((((hugs))))

Isolated Existence. said...

I just found out, I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of prayers. You are moving to NY, fresh start is always good..

Raquel said...

Hi Ivy, I know this is late. Karon lang ko nakabalo kay inactive na ko sa blogging. Today, I talked a friend over the phone and she told me about the news. I am sorry to hear about the loss of your husband.

My heartfelt condolences to you and your family. May God give him eternal rest and may his soul rest in peace!

Take care.